Letter to my future self

To my future self,

I hope this note finds you well. I want to share with you the lessons learned this past year and offer a few things for you to think about as you prepare to embark on whatever journey lies ahead.

On January 15, 2017, you ran the best marathon you have ever run as you wrapped up what felt like a breakthrough training season. For the first time, you ran with ease and comfortably finished without issue.

In March, you proved to yourself that your strong marathon was not a fluke, despite the snafu that left you short of the full distance. Sometimes, things happen and you can't fault anyone for an honest mistake.

In April, you showed Thuy that you could handle an entire weekend alone with June as a single parent. You learned that sometimes, mama needs a break too.

In May, you learned the fun in camping under the stars before a trail race. You can choose your campsite, but you can't choose your rowdy neighbors.

In July, you enjoyed a memorable family trip to Colorado Springs where you reconnected with your parents. You learned that they deserve way more credit than you have given them. They were once in your shoes and they are a lot more understanding than you previously thought. Mom and Dad saw you cross a finish line for the first time in over a decade of running and reminded you of how special it is to have loved ones at the end.

In late August, Hurricane Harvey brought flood waters into our home. You were reminded that there are things in life that you just can't protect. You learned that June has got strength and resilience beyond her years. Don't ever sell her short. You learned that you can carry Sadie on your shoulders when you have to. You learned the kindness and generosity of complete strangers who rescued you out of your flooded home in a boat.

In September, your family and friends gave you a place to stay and helped you pick up the pieces. You learned that rebuilding was going to take time.

In October, your heart grew full when you were introduced to baby Ellis, who was growing in Thuy's womb. In late November, your heart broke into pieces when we had to say goodbye. You learned that even in loss there are gifts for which to be thankful.

Remember that among the many gifts that running provides, healing and community are chief among them. Remember the friends who shared their stories, their time, their pain, and offered a shoulder for your tears. Remember that all of your accomplishments weren't earned in a vacuum. You did this with the help, support, and love of so many others. Appreciate them always. Remember to never pass on an opportunity to look them in the eye and tell them that you love them and that you are grateful for them.

-your past self